:: him ::

Salam...

[i'm blogging while listening to Maher Zain's songs]

Yup.. it's been all nite and i can't sleep. gezz.. he really2 drive me crazy. prrrfff~ (>.<)

Who is he? hurm.. d one I adore (I've been trying to adore him actually). I'm not sure if I really like him or just a crush. U see.. he never said he likes me but i'm just sooo in to him. Frankly speaking, he's not my type! but yet.. he has all the qualities i needed for a HUSBAND.

Knowing him - i finally get back my 'other' self. D one who had left SMKA for the last 10years ago.

And all about silat thingies, he always guide me to overcome my curiosity. Seems like he knows deeper about it.. and i'm glad to know him!

As much as i'm hurt to say it, but i hope that i get an answer from him about the relationship. Honestly - i'm preparing myself for a negative respond. So that i manage to get thru it and find the best man out there...

Warning! I'm not that desperate although Abah alwayz pushing me for IN-LAWS.. even thought he'll be rejecting me, it wasn't easy for me to accept anyone in short time. yes! i'm darn choosy when it comes to my soul mate. But i trust on my faith. En Jodoh will find me 1day. Time will heal and tell everything.. and that is why i needed their supports - my family, my friends and my colleague!

To HIM that i adore.. if u ever know urself that i've been mentioned in this post- i know u know how i felt about u. Pls give me an answer and i can go on with my life.. And u know how much i can sacrifice just for you - even leaving you for your best! If it's true that "WE'RE JUST FRIENDS" - insyaAllah, i'll take care of myself then. But u have to know this - THANK YOU for giving my 'other' life back... and for all few times we had together, i really2 appreciated that. Pls find a great women for urself,k...

" If you love someone, let him go... If he's really your soulmate, he'll return back to you..

If not, be thankful that he had comes to your life and added sweet memories in you.. "

Salam Sayang...

:: a secret makes a women women ::

OneRepublic - Secrets

FOR HIM (i really wish he knew!), this song is for you. Unless he can understand English, learn literature a bit and have sense of musics - he'll probably understood why am shooting this song to HIM...

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kind of boring
Need something that i can confess

Till all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no, I've been on the brink, so

[CHORUS]
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that'll like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time
Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm Gonna give all my secrets away

My God, amazing how we got this far
It's like were chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars

And everyday I see the news
All the problems we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album

Seen it straight to go
I don't really like my flow, no, so

[CHORUS]

Got no reason
Got no shame
Got no family
I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

[CHORUS x2]

All my secrets away (x2)

:: Eid 2010 ::

Salam...

Alhamdulillah.. we've just celebrating eid mubarak last Friday (10Sept 2010). Since it was last minute decisions by Abah - to make an open house on 1st day of raya - so, a bit rushing as we have to prepare the meals etc.. etc.. etc.. to entertain our guests. My biggest regret - don't have chance to have a forgive-and-forget session & also raya photo-shoot with the whole family due to the buziness.. T_T

day 2 - visiting relatives around perak. it's a quite bz day and there are a lot of cars in the road aka JAMMED!!! prrrff~ (>.<)

day 3 - went to so-called cousin's weds before me and my siblings went back to KL. since we've been informed that the highway is having a heavy jammed, so we've decided to wait at Opah's house till midnite to pursue our journey. end up, we arrived home at 3.00am!! sooo exhausted!!! (@_@)

raya 2010 = calm but less happiness... huhu (-___-")

wish i could turn back the time and fixed it up!

anyhow, i'm so bless that i still have chance to be with my family this year. =)

:: counting days... ::

Salam...

Puasa & Raya

4days left.. before all Muslims celebrating Hari Raya. Frankly speaking, i felt so empty these days.. not eager to celebrate the moment. I'm missing something in my life, but not sure what is it. prrffff~ (>_<)

Anyway, i manage to bought myself a new sandals just now. KakYang, Bihah & myself going to Midvalley to find our shoes. Then we went to Giant to seek for a handbag @ tudung. Unfortunately, we dun really like the tudung. hurmm... so, biha just bought a new handbag for herself and we went back. tiring~~~ (-_-")

Masters vs New job

Last 3days i received 2 calls - from a freight forwarder company and UTM, KL.

Interview- Yup.. they're offering me to go for an interview this Wednesday. Well.. if u ask me, i would say, i just wanna 'test market' whether i am capable to do anythings else. Lately i felt so useless - doing the same routine and no development. Shall i go to the interview, i'll update later,k..

Masters - one of BATC staff called me and ask me whether i'm interested to take the course. well, yeah! definitely! thus, she ask me to complete all the forms and respond before by the end of this month. InsyaAllah, i'll complete all the documents needed. this is what i want and i'll try my best to achieve it. ahh.. btw, insyaAllah i'll be taking MASTER IN ENGINEERING BUSINESS MANAGEMENT (MEBM).

wish me luck ya~ (^_~)v

:: i wish... ::

Salam...

As much as i'm eager to go travelling around the world, i really2 wish i could go to this place 1st before anywhere else - Mecca Al-Mukarramah. Nothing really.. it just that, from my point of view, wherever we wish to go, the most important thing, we know ourselves - to whom we worshiping to. Yesterday night, i dunno, but it suddenly come across my mind - I MISS MECCA SO MUCH~!!! With tears, i started calculating my savings so that i'll manage to go UMRAH at least by the end of next year. Ya Allah.. if this is good for me, for my future, for everyone i loved.. pls give me ways to go there.. to purify myself.. to identify myself.. worshiping You.. till now and ever.. and guide us to Your Jannah.. amin..

:: 8 days to go ::

Salam...

Time flee.. so fast that i couldn't imagine! Only left 8days before Hari Raya Aidilfitri. haih.. Frankly speaking, i dun really feel hari raya mood. In fact, i'm not in a mood to hear all those hari raya songs - sumtimes it makes me sick! (-_-")

Being the eldest from both families, i am a nerd since i was a child. and thus, i always studying or being alone, do my own things every time my whole family balik kampung at Batu Gajah @ Relau . Not being snubbing nor passive, but it's me - familiar with books and pen in my hand (yeah! not talkative as what i am now~). I'd rather read@finish the whole book than going to cousin's houses. And yes... the habit pursue till now... hurm.. (-___-)

Reason i'm writing in this blog - Pls accept my sincere apologize to all my cousins/relatives, that i hardly know each and one of them - that is related with me - directly or indirectly. i know I've been such a geek since now and then! huhu.. anyway, it's not easy for me to learn about our legacy. I've tried and i'll keep trying till now.. hopefully someday, i could just gather all of our family members (which i still dunno where to start!) and make a photo shot - kinda make a precious moment to all of us. To all my cousins/relatives out there - pls take care and hope to see you soon. ;D

Salam Lailatul Qadar..