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Salam

wow... it's been months since i left this blog unattended. Last post was on last APRIL 2012!!! Prfftttt!!! (>.<") Many things happens and i really dunno where to start.

Hurm.. let me start with incident happened on July 2012. I remembered it was on fasting month. I had verify my status with sumone i used to adore soooo much. He said that he do not want me to wait for him. So, i think it's over then between me and him. Surprisingly, he did not mentioned that he already have a gf!! [ok, this is another long story]

And so, i pursue my life as a normal me. On Aug, i received a  call from Diana saying that i'll be attending Petronas's interview! I was really looking forward for this job as i think i need a new life. Alhamdulillah, i get the job. Syukran Ya Allah~ (^__^)

But, here's the point - my relationship with this one guy has become so close... In my life, I never imagine that I will fall in love with this guy... He used to be my partner, my adviser and and closest pal in office. He's the one whom always be by my side when I had difficulties in my life...

Few days before i left the company, he really tried to attend all my wishes and request. One of it - playing piano for me. It was the sweetest moment in my life. No matter how hard I'm trying to avoid to fall in love with him, but the feeling keep coming. I can feel the loves he kept showering me...

I'll continue this story soon..... 

:: The Voice - Battle - Pip vs Nathan ::

Pip vs. Nathan Parrett: "You Know I'm No Good"



1st - Strike by the song
2nd - Strike with the boys vocal
3rd - both are cute!! i can't resist it!!! kyaaa~ ♥ (^o^)

:: AM I UR U.N.I.N.T.E.N.D.E.D ::

Akustik Hafiz - Unintended



It's been almost 2weeks, never heard anything from him. only a single or two message (which he only replies...) and my assumption on he admires sumone... i do feel wanna back-off now. May ALLAH guide my way...

Susan Boyle - Unchained Melody

Lovely Song~ ♥

:: It's all about the VOICE bebeh~ woot²~ (^.^) ::

Anthony Evans vs. Jesse Campbell: "If I Ain't Got You"

:: 4March 2012 ::

Bismillah...

a) Today is my close friend - Nor Izani... Happy 26th to her. Wish her a happy life ahead. Miss the moments we were closed quite some times ago.

b) Received text from Achik that she already delivered a baby girl last March 1st. Congratz for her new born baby.

c) Hurm... dis part not really important. Last Friday (March 2nd) I treated K.nim for her status has been confirmed as a permanent staff and "Him" for her new job. Happy for them~ (^__^)

Lately I always sing/hear Anda - Menghitung Hari II. It's a nice song with a melodic lyrics. I luv 'em~! ♥

And I always remembered the night we had dinner together. My love is kinda deeper for him. I wish he knew. haih~ (-__-") Thou he kept saying another girl's name (I dun have any idea why...), but my heart never doubt him. I wish I knew his feelings towards me... I wish he give me a release statement if he doesn't want me. Easier for me to release my feeling towards him. I don't know whether it's time or not, but if he really doesn't belongs to me, I hope that I can fade away this feeling and give another a chance (if any) to other guy. I really want to get married this year... IF... he wants me, I'll wait forever~ huhuhu

Like a line in Menghitung Hari II :-

"Belum pernah ku jatuh cinta, sekeras ini seperti padamu~" ♫♫♫

Yeah! Never fall in love with any guys like him... I even ask YM to pray for my jodoh at when he done umrah. I really do... Hopefully Allah granted my wish... InsyaAllah. (^_^)

:: ku menanti jawapan... ::

Menghitung Hari 2 by ANDA

menghitung hari detik demi detik

menunggu itu kan menjemukan

tapi ku sabar menanti jawabmu

jawab cintamu

jangan kau beri harapan padaku

seperti ingin tapi tak ingin

yg aku minta tulus hatimu

bukan pura-pura

reff: jangan pergi dari cintaku

biar saja tetap denganku

biar semua tahu adanya

dirimu memang punyaku

jangan kau beri harapan padaku

seperti ingin tapi tak ingin

yg aku minta tulus hatimu

bukan pura-pura

repeat reff

belum pernah aku jatuh cinta

sekeras ini seperti padamu

jangan sebut aku lelaki

bila tak bisa dapatkan engkau

jangan sebut aku lelaki

1st time dgr lagu ni mase karok session smlm ngan Abg Danial, Farrah, Adik Farrah - Faiq & Khalid. Such a happy moment we had yesterday~ lagu ni Faiq yg choose. tros strike lagu ni sbb lirik die.. hehehehe... Layan,k~ =D

:: jiwangs ::

Anuar Zain - Cinta Harus Memiliki (with lyrics)

After the confession, i dunno... im not normal... im not sure how to describe this feeling.

I do understand that if we love sumone doesnt mean we have owned him. But, sumhow, how hard i denied about it - it hurts me.. a LOT!!! Wuuu~ (T__T)

:: Interview ::

Salam,

"He" called me juz now, informed that he gets an interview for the company he's looking forward. Alhamdulillah... surely I'm glad to hear that. It will be tomorrow (err.. I mean today? - 30Jan) starting 9am-5pm. Hopefully he'll be fine and I really² pray for his success.

Gambatte nee~ \(^o^)/

:: C.O.N.F.E.S.S.I.O.N ::

Adele - One and only

Ehem²... yup, this is my confession. But I don't dare to confess directly to HIM at the moment.. huhu [hello~ I sgt mjage reputasi sbg anak gadis yg pemalu, hokeh~ *shy² cat*]

Hopefully.. and if only he read my blog, I wish that he could understand the lyrics.. and my feeling towards him..

"Let me be your one & only... " (^___^) ♥♥♥

Lyric:

You've been on my mind, I grow fonder every day

Lose myself in time just thinking of your face

God only knows why it's taken me so long to let my doubts go

You're the only one that I want

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before

Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all

You'll never know if you never try

To forget your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only

Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms

So come on and give me a chance

To prove I am the one who can walk that mile

Until the end starts

If I've been on your mind, you hang on every word I say

Lose yourself in time at the mention of my name

Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close

And have you tell me whichever road I choose you'll go

I don't know why I'm scared 'cause I've been here before

Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all

You'll never know if you never try

To forget your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only

Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms

So come on and give me a chance

To prove I am the one who can walk that mile

Until the end starts

I know it ain't easy giving up your heart

I know it ain't easy giving up your heart

Nobody's perfect

(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart)

Trust me, I've learned it

Nobody's perfect

(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart)

Trust me, I've learned it

Nobody's perfect

(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart)

Trust me, I've learned it

Nobody's perfect

(I know it ain't easy giving up your heart)

Trust me I've learned it

So I dare you to let me be your, your one and only

I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms

So come on and give me a chance

To prove I am the one who can walk that mile

Until the end starts

Come on and give me a chance

To prove I am the one who can walk that mile

Until the end starts

:: inner conflict ::

Salam,

Hurm.. just now I accompany my senior to buy some groceries at Giant, Kinrara. I don't know why but I'm not really in a mood today. Just for a while I feel serene when I was at Taman Bukit Jalil... Just a few moment whilst doing appraisal for my staff. After finding the groceries needed, we went to solat maghrib. Then we went to pizzahut to have my dinner. When she wanna talk about 'sumone' she likes, I spontaneously cut-off the topic. Deep in my heart I really wanna say - enuf is enuf. 'He' had taken the privilege we had given to him. 'He' distroy our trust to him. I think 'he' is being unfair to her. I don't wanna say this.. but.. haih~ I think that since she met him, she has become sumone else, not like my senior I knew back in utm. I wouldn't mind if she changed for good things, but she acting like she's matured enuf but reality is, she become so weak when it comes to sumone she likes... Haih~ I think that my period will be coming in few days time, that is why I behave like this. graaa~ (-__-")

Anyway, when I reach home, suddenly 'he' whom I admired, called!! Owh, ok.. it was a missed call since I was at kitchen at that time and didn't realize the call. Once I heard his voice, I felt like my heart is beating soooo fast. Ok, u can say I'm excited! =P. I admit, I missed him.. so much indeed! *woot3* He claimed that I'm the one whom being silence all this while??!! [Hallooo~ I ni anak gadis, hokeh~ kenape pulak I yang nak kene call u? If I nak pon, I kene bertabah, hokeh.. jage waterface sbg anak gadis yg bhemah.. huhuhu]. He juz wanna say that he already send me an email on post available at this oil & gas company. He is a very kind guy.. And now, I do admired him more~~ ♥♥♥ (^_^)

Owh... forgot to update the latest news. Last few days, Aunty Ramlah wanna introduce her son's friend to me. watde~?!!! Indonesian guy, aged 38.. a volunteer to m'sia.. wanna find a muslimah girl - I guess he wanna find a WIFE here. dang~ (-____-). I'm speechless............ I really hope, that guy won't call or wanna meet me. Seriously! Din's case is not settled yet, here comes another one? Alahai... xlarat la nak layan bende² cani. huhu

My heart at this moment, still belongs to 'him'... CH member... who treat me BR... I still admired him eventhou we hardly have chat or conversation. I do like him and I can't really entertain another guy. Sorry guys.. Maybe later on, when I was rejected by 'him;, only then I THINK I can open my heart to any of you.. sorry~

:: UAI men gitar~ ::

Sesi Gitar Ustaz Azhar Idrus Dengan Zizan Raja Lawak

Gile cool la ustaz~~~~ \(^o^)/

:: hindustani ::

Medley song-mujhse Dosti karoge

Somehow I enjoy listen to dis song suddenly. hahaha~ [jiwe jiwang xhengat!] XD

layan je la~ =P

:: Bunga² Cinta ::

‪Dude Harlino feat. Asmirandah - Bunga-Bunga Cinta (Ost Dalam Mihrab Cinta)

To him I admired so much - Mr S, pls know that I really adore you~ Since I admired you, I've developed myself to be a mature lady, a positive thinker... with the guidance from people surround me, I really hope that I can suit to be your wife. And I'm ready for that... I'll be waiting for you... muah~ ♥ (^__^)

:: Love Story v.2012 ::

Melly Goeslaw feat. Irwansyah - Love Story (with lyrics)

Hopefully there is a love story begin between me and "him".. *shy² cat*

:: gaaaaaaaaaaa~ (=.=) ::

Wondering why the title is like that? answer: bcoz im super stress!!! (x_X)

As a TL

RDN issue juz beginning of the year?!! u must kidding me!! SCR Team really wanna get points that fast, isn't it? But, u see... u're dealing with ME, dear~ the new TL won't give up bebeh! Alhamdulillah till before I left the office juz now, I managed to get responds from CTA and salesperson on PSC and yes, we won!! Syukur~ Hopefully SCR Team won't get too much pressure, ok? And hopefully my team can survive w/out me.. huhu

As a TP

I still attending class eventhou I'm not feeling well... End up, my cough dragging until 2weeks!! It already been cured last week, but it seems like it's gonna make a comeback! Oh noooo~ (T_T) But I never regret it. U know why? Bcoz I have a bunch of dedicated persons who are so eager to learn silat. I luv silat like I luv myself. Seeing that these people know how to defend themselves yet still can enjoy & cherish the moments when we were together, IT'S PRICELESS~ Luv them soooo much~ muax! ♥

As a daughter, a sister

Err.... the only think that I can't full-filled my family's dream is to a in-laws for them. Guys, I'm trying, hokeh~ Gigih ni nak ngorat anak teruna orang.. huhuhu (-.-")

As myself

To be a good muslimah, dedicated worker, happy-go-lucky girl, matured lady, responsible daughter, generous sis - It's not that simple to mix and match our personalities with people around us. But u see, it's how we survive by suits ourselves with environment. Everyone have flaws but each of us have our own strength too, right? I'm not a constant person.. I do lack (sumtimes) when it comes to M.A.L.A.S! Pehh~ guess everyone know when this virus attacked, we have no choice but face it! Either to will fall or u will get pain in order to survive urself!

Ok, enuf said. later i'll keep mumbling around w/out any point. prrfff~

Hurm.. about my feeling? errr... aaaaa... He whom I admired treat me BR ice-cream last 1st Jan. I dunno whether he's taking this as a serious matter or what, but he actually introduce me to other guy??!!! Seriously??!!! Dem~!! (-__-") Mase tu rase nak wat buah siku potong je kat die. Sebaek la die SMP, klu x mmg saje² aku troskan niat dihati. huh!

But anyway... I dont blame him if he didnt know that I like him. As been advised by abg sya, kak rina, abg danial - i need to calm down. be rasional. be matured. jual mahal la sket - kate abg sya.. err, ok~ slowly i trained myself to be a good person. not only to take her heart, but also to improve myself to be a better me. I will loss my weight. I'll definitely want my prize. Looking forward to get slim before my 26th birthday. InsyaAllah..

To him i admired, pls dun do that again. It really hurts me a lot. It's ok if u rejected me, but not by introduce me to other guy. I choose my friends. same goes to when it comes to soulmate. lagi anda jual mahal, lagi sy eager nak dapatkan anda,hokeh~ org kejar sy, sy kejar awak.. hehehehe

Looking forward for tomorrow's vacation~ lalala~♪♥

:: Marilah menutup aurat~ ::

Nice voice yet full of messages. Me is in luv wif d voice (and the message~)

UAI & ZIZAN - Countdown 2012 [Full Version]

Terbaekkkk~~~ ♥