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Salam...

Hurm.. don't know where to start...

This 1 fine day at K.Ita's birthday, he suddenly approach me, which at that time i hardly know him. Then, he keep along with Abg Mano, joining our activities.. watching movies together, fetch YM from airport together, met him at Jamuan Raya SCH.. and my last memory, i saw him on SCH Convo day. I was surprise to see him thou. Well, I was thinking, there is no way he'll come.. He's just come back from UK, nowhere to go training yet.. thus, it's impossible he can attend SMP too.. and i was wrong. He's there, taking SMP certs in front of me.. Wondering he can take SMP after being at UK for quite sometimes. He must be good to pass SMP at this stage~

On that moment onward, he really strikes me! I slowly opened my heart to know about him. on Tuesday, my heart starts to beat tremendously when i just think about him. and i confess to Abg Mano about him. Amazingly, i didn't realized that he exactly have about 80% of the criteria that i need for a husband. i just realized that.. which am glad that i did like the right person.

But today, when i show his pic to one of my officemate, she said something that makes me think very deeply - don't like someone that he never do anything or say anything that he likes us. Suddenly i felt my whole world is blackout! long enough........... until i found my way............

Yup, i admit, it was too quick for me to felt in love with someone that i don't even know if he likes me. i admit.. by the time i likes him, i do have hopes that he'll be mine 1day. i admit it was totally my fault. but after all, i have no regret that i like a good guy like him.

Now, i've learned... and i'm educating myself.. to be down to earth. to be rational. and advised by K.nim.. she's right. don't put too much hope and feel on someone.. afraid that 1day when i fall, i don't have enough strength to get up again...

Y Allah.. jika Kau yg berikan perasaan kasih ini padaku, Kau permudahkanlah urusanku..

Jika perasaan ini dtg dari nafsuku, Kau bimbinglah aku..

Aku redha jika sekeping hati itu bukan milikku..

Terima kasih kerna memberi aku sedetik waktu untuk aku menikmati indahnya perasaan ini..